THIS maybe 1 of the last blog i shall make as i don think i am a good blogger.All my post seem not to be good this is either i hurt people or got hurt.especially this 2 days where memories is the most deepest and painful.
On the 19th, a sms came early in the morning that dash my hope for further education and 20th my mind was even worse i guess i lost another important part of life which 2 years ago i did not cherish. 1 sentence which is i thought i always have change actually i have change nothing not only that i scold all sort things that should not said but i also don't know why i do all this.
That day on the morning i woke up from the dream that i found myself been fooled actually this is no excuse for commiting such things..But my character is like this i really hate myself, when i am in pain she can put down all the past to see me yet i can't put down the past and treat her as friends and causes hurt to her which is selfish of me.
But 1 thing i did was to make her realise that she loves her bf very much even though they quarrels. I guess moving on is the best thing i could do now and leting it go is the best for all even hurt also no point bothering others.
If she will to read this stuff and no longer angry and hope she will send a message that she have forgiven me which is a small wish of mine.IF time could stop which is not possible only spend the time wisely and cherish the people who treat you good.
On the 19th, a sms came early in the morning that dash my hope for further education and 20th my mind was even worse i guess i lost another important part of life which 2 years ago i did not cherish. 1 sentence which is i thought i always have change actually i have change nothing not only that i scold all sort things that should not said but i also don't know why i do all this.
That day on the morning i woke up from the dream that i found myself been fooled actually this is no excuse for commiting such things..But my character is like this i really hate myself, when i am in pain she can put down all the past to see me yet i can't put down the past and treat her as friends and causes hurt to her which is selfish of me.
But 1 thing i did was to make her realise that she loves her bf very much even though they quarrels. I guess moving on is the best thing i could do now and leting it go is the best for all even hurt also no point bothering others.
If she will to read this stuff and no longer angry and hope she will send a message that she have forgiven me which is a small wish of mine.IF time could stop which is not possible only spend the time wisely and cherish the people who treat you good.